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Motherhood…the Bad and the Beautiful of it All

I am many things. A wife, a daughter, a sister, and a friend. I am a handmade business owner. I am a homeschooler.

Like I said, a lot of things! But, the most important “job title” that I have is that of momma. It’s an awesome job! It’s a vitally important job!

But whoa, it’s a tough job.

My 5, 4, and 2 year old kiddos bring me such delight, but also bone tired weariness that is hard to overcome some days. It’s on days like those that I see God’s grace so clearly as He helps me to care for these little ones that He has entrusted to me.

Recently I’ve been thinking about all the things that I am not going to miss as my kids grow. Not in a “woe is me” kind of way that leaves me miserable with my current circumstances, but in a hopeful kind of way that things won’t always be as crazy as they are right now.

For example…

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Yeah, I’m not going to miss them drawing on the walls. Not going to miss them destroying things. They are like little tornadoes sometimes, just leaving a line of destruction in their paths! Not going to miss it!

Laundry

Sometimes I feel like laundry is the bane of my existence as a mother. I cannot keep up with it! It will be so nice when my kiddos can do their own! That will be a chore given to them asap, and one that I will not miss at all!

toddler tantrum

Toddler tantrums. Not going to miss it. Enough said.

I’m not going to miss sitting down on the potty and feeling something wet that was left behind since my boy forgot to lift the seat before he went to the potty.

I’m not going to miss the interruption to my sleep when one of the kids cry out in the middle of the night.

I’m not going to miss the fighting to do phonics work every.single.day!

This mothering job is a tough 24/7 gig. It’s not easy. It’s really, really hard sometimes.

But, it’s also really beautiful.

I read a blog post the other day that helped me move past thinking on the things that I won’t miss and brought me to thinking of things that I would miss if I wasn’t in the throws of this tough 24/7 gig. “10 Amazing Things That Happen When You Become a Mom” listed out some truths of this job that just made me smile! At the end, the author challenged the readers to come up with our own list of amazing things. So, to add to my “not going to miss” list, here are some things that I find just beautiful being a mom.

1. All the laughter! My kids are hilarious and make me laugh a lot! Laughter is a beautiful thing, and we laugh a lot around here. I have the silliest of silly little 4 year old boy who is constantly saying or doing something that cracks me up! And, my youngest is quickly becoming a little funny guy too! Their jokes, their stories, their made up words, their giggles all bring a big smile to my face and laughter in our home. I’m so thankful for this! (My girl is funny too, just so you know!)

Owen LaughingSilly Owen, cracking me up! 

2. Watching them discover the world. Seeing my kids as they see and experience something new is amazing! I love seeing their eyes light up as they watch the sky, the snow, air planes, or anything for the first time. It really makes me appreciate these things for how amazing they are too. It’s so easy to take everyday moments for granted, but getting to see them as your child discovers them for the fist time is a beautiful reminder at the amazement and wonder that is in this world.

Karis' discoveryKaris discovering the world on a snowy day. 

“The heavens declare the glory of God and the sky above proclaim His handiwork.”

Psalm 19:1

3. Being loved. Hearing a little person say, “Mommy, will you snuggle with me?” Hello melted heart! Ultimately, those little people love me. I can have a terrible attitude, feel like a worthless horrible momma, and then one of them does or says something that reminds me that I am loved! All the kisses, the squeezes, the “I wuv you” moments are amazing! I am thankful to experience the love they have for me.

I love my mommy

 

4. Experiencing multiplied love. I remember the last few days of having only one kiddo. I relished each moment with just Karis, as I knew it would never be the same again. We spent time out and about a lot together, so I was nervous about having 2 kids. Not just for the way things were going to change, but I just couldn’t comprehend loving another little person as much as I loved her. How it happens I don’t know and can’t explain, but it’s like your ability to love is multiplied. There is more love in you to give and experience than you ever thought possible! I love them. I love them each differently and the same. And I love that I am able to love them with love that is multiplied, and not divided. It’s an amazingly beautiful thing!

My 3 LovesMy 3 little loves. 

 

5. Finding a strength and ability within yourself that you never knew was there. This is one of my favorite things that I have experienced being a mom, but also one of the things that I wish I didn’t have to find out. I hate when my kids are sick or hurt, but it’s in those moments that I have seen God’s grace help me and give me the strength that I need to care for them. Giving a bath at midnight to wash them after they have thrown up, letting my child prop up and sleep on me so they don’t have to feel the pain in their ear that laying down flat causes, keeping calm and getting them ready for the emergency room after an accident, all these I call getting in “go mode.” They are all moments that bring fear and trembling to me, until it happens. And then, I just get in go mode. I just do it. I don’t think, I just do what has to be done. God is able, and does, give me everything I need to do this job of mothering, even when the circumstances seem impossible. So, I don’t have to be afraid of what may come. I know that He will help me,  and that my friends is an amazing thing.

Mom strength

 

6. Seeing them be used to make me more like Jesus. I’ve said it before, my kids are my little sanctification machines! Never has something, or in this case someone, been used so much to point out my sin and help me become more like Jesus. Hebrews tells us to throw off the sin that so easily entangles us and run the race marked out for us. My kids help me to see my sin that so easily entangles me, and when I see it I can confess it, ask for forgiveness, and move on trusting that I am forgiven in Christ. It is God’s grace that shows me my sin and His grace that helps me overcome it. He is so good to give me the blessing of children to help me be more like Him!

7. Getting to play and do fun things again! I get to play help my kid at Monkey Joe’s until my youngest kid is 4. So that gives me 2 more years of jumping and sliding down all those fun inflatables! Yep, this is a great thing! 🙂

8. Being needed. Especially when they are younger, kids need their parents. As babies, they need us to do everything for them. This is daunting at times, but it’s beautiful that this little someone probably couldn’t make it without you. You are needed! You have a job that is so important and so special. As they grow and are able to do more for themselves, their need for you changes, but they still need you.  (I can tell you right now, at 31 years old, I still need my momma!) Being a mom is a job that you take on for life, it just looks a little different in every season. Now, my kids need to me to teach them and help them along in this life, but one day they may just need me to pray for them or come watch their kids for them. Who knows! But, I’ll be there whenever they need me.

So that’s my list! I’m sure there are more things I am not thinking of at the moment, but it’s a good start. It’s good to think though things like this and focus on the beauty in midst of the chaos. Even though I’m not going to miss some things, I’m thankful for them all. I’m thankful that there are drawings on the wall, because it means that little hands are around to hold crayons and markers. I’m thankful for all the laundry, because it means there are little bodies to wear all those clothes. And I can be thankful for the little toddler tantrums, because it means there are lungs working well in my 2 year old.

And truth be told, I probably will miss all of it one day…

 

~Heather

 

What things would you add to these lists? I would love to hear! 

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