This post is part of my #write31days series about being an unlikely homeschooler. Be sure to follow along with the entire series by checking out the main page here.
“Is anything too hard for the Lord?” Genesis 18:14
“Ah, Lord GOD! It is you who have made the heavens and the earth by your great power and by your outstretched arm! Nothing is too hard for you.” Jeremiah 32:17
“For nothing will be impossible with God.” Luke 1:37
“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9
Ever since I came to truly know and walk with the Lord, my love and thankfulness for the Bible has grown and grown. I grew up going to church and had a solid foundation of head knowledge, but it wasn’t until college that I began to own my faith and true, deep affections for Christ and His word developed. In the years since, and through more studying of the Bible, my love and thankfulness for the flawed men and women we meet in Scripture has also grown and grown.
In different times of my life I have identified with these great men and women, who were not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. But in my current season, and really since having kids (and maybe even since getting married!) I have been more challenged and encouraged by the life and writings of Paul than any other. (More on this in a bit. Just stick with me!)
I wrote yesterday how I am well acquainted with my flaws, my shortcomings, and my deep rooted sins, and how knowing these things to be such a struggle in my life made me really pause and consider this homeschool journey. Even after I was more on board with the whole idea, I didn’t want to jump into it lightly. I know being one prone to laziness and procrastination does not lend oneself to being a stellar homeschool momma.
There’s the planning, and the diligence to stay on track. The evaluations. The keeping up with all the papers, items, and record keeping.
Even if I had some great plan and found the perfect curriculum I just knew that my flaws and tendencies would present themselves and would make homeschooling a huge challenge for me.
So, logic said, “Heather, you cannot homeschool your kids.”
But faith said, “You are right, you cannot homeschool your kids, on your own strength. But God’s power is perfected in your weakness.”
In 2 Corinthians 12:7-10 Paul talks about a thorn in his flesh, given to keep him humble. He asked the Lord to take it away, but the answer was no. God told him that His grace was sufficient and His power was perfected in Paul’s weakness.
Paul, the same man who wrote so much of the New Testament, probably the greatest missionary this world has ever known, struggled with something that made Him feel weak. The text doesn’t tell us what it was he struggled with, but it was enough of a struggle to make him ask the Lord to remove it.
Here is what I get from this. Even with his flaws and struggles, and after his prayer for the thorn to be removed was not granted, Paul STILL followed the Lord in faithfulness to do all that the He had for him to do. If there was a moment that his weakness was evident, then whatever was accomplished in that moment was all the more to the praise and glory of God who made it possible.
Now, here’s what I know to be true of me and homeschooling in light of this passage of scripture from Paul.
First, I am weak, and flawed, and my sinful tendencies make homeschooling tough. So, if that was all there was then no way would I homeschool. But it’s not! I know He is helping me accomplish what it is He has for me. Even though I have asked the Lord to help me and to simply take away my bent to laziness, it’s still there. Every. single. day. I have to fight to do the things I have to do.
But here is my favorite part…
At the end of the lesson, at the end of the chapter, at the end of each day, and at the end of the year, each and every single thing that we accomplish happens because of God’s help. I can look at our homeschool days and say, “That’s not me y’all! I didn’t do that! I couldn’t do that! This was all absolutely a work of God!”
And all the praise and glory goes to the proper place.
I can’t take any credit for what’s going on in our homeschool. In my flesh, I’m a lazy, procrastinating, perfection seeking mess of a mom; but God is seeing fit to use me in a way that is SO beyond what I can do on my own. A dear homeschooling mentor of mine once told me that it is good to put ourselves in positions that seem above what we are able to do so that we get to see what God can do.
Homeschooling is so out of my comfort zone, but it has put me in a position where I must rely on God to help me be and do more than I think I can. 5 years into this journey, I have definitely seen God’s help in tremendous ways, and I’m humbled, and thankful, and very grateful for it.
My flaws make me an incredibly unlikely homeschooler, but thank goodness I don’t depend on what I can do alone. God’s power is perfected in my weaknesses, “therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong” (2. Cor. 12:9b-10).